full of pain and hurt
sorrowful writing is all I’ve known.
but writing makes me happy
It gives me a purpose beyond today.
a worthy pursuit
does it exist.
A notebook by the bed
what to do with last weeks 2am obsession
file it with the others
should have gotten up.
hundreds lost on my old phone
too bad skipping work isn’t an option.
Kahlil says sorrow is a well carved into your soul
to be filled by joy, but even when overflowing
the feeling of drowning dominates.
must learn to stay afloat
as if should’s really exist.