In 2008-2009 I made some pretty major life changing, life transitioning changes. I decided I was going to living my life for myself and no longer living the life people around me expected me to live. I discarded the life people believed I was supposed to live. Part of it was the understanding that it was their belief not mine. But most of it was just that I needed to break free. Shortly after moving forward I met the man that would become my sisters husband. He told me he liked me because “you’re real,” he said, “that some people can’t handle that and you need to remember that that’s their problem not yours.” I thought I was living authentically.
Before Easter when someone talked about living authentically I would have thought they were talking about living the life you have envisioned for yourself. Living a unique life one that is 100% your’s. The pastor at a church I regularly attend changed my perception of it. He talked about how Jesus’s raising from the dead was his way of proving who he was. It was him proving he was living authentically the whole time it was him showing the world he could follow through on his promises. Regardless of whether you are religious in anyway what needs to be extracted is the idea of following through no matter the cost.
I used to consider myself a reliable person. I used to follow through on everything. I was either upfront with an “I don’t know if I can do it” statement or I would add 30 % to the time I thought it would take and hope I got it done in time. Then I started to wane a little. I looked around at the people I worked with, I looked at my fellow students, I thought about TV and movie characters and realized I don’t actually need to follow through on everything. One night I was talking to my sister about how bad I felt about something I had not done. She yelled at me saying “how dare you think your better than us” I said I didn’t think I was, but she continued it was presumptuous to hold myself to a higher standard then others and even think I could follow through all the time. So foolishly listened and I stopped. I meant to only do it for a short time. To give myself a failure here and there, not that big of a deal. Except it got a little out of control.
I continued down the path of living my own life but still not following through on elements of that life. I backed out of really important things, in really bad ways, things that could have led to careers, good ones. Ones that I would enjoy more than anything I’ve done other than what I’ve been doing for the last two months.
There is a lot more to say about this, But I’m not sure what to add.
I eat this or some similar variation of this every morning. I am not actually a foot ball fan It was just what I grabbed.
Here it is my daily breakfast. One egg with a small hand full of chopped vegetable and cheese, pancakes with sugar-free syrup, cereal with a table-spoon of ground flax-seed and vanilla almond milk, a fruit smoothie, tea, and a glass of water.
Yesterday I finally paid a visit to the Daily post I keep reading about it and thought hey maybe I should look at it. I think using it for posting everyday might be a little too much for me especially since I want to blog about my own stuff but their weekly photo challenge looks like a thing to add to my blog. It will add a variation that most won’t exist otherwise and it will hopefully cause me to stretch my creative mind. I’m not sure this one does it but…
This is breakfast, nearly every morning. As I said above I eat my egg with a vegetable, usually it is broccoli but I’ve used brussels sprouts, cauliflower, cabbage and even kale. Broccoli, what I used today are my favorite but brussels sprouts are pretty awesome too. Today I had blue berry pancakes, but I prefer the buttermilk. I just don’t want to get tired of them so I mix it up. I must have tea every morning, Earl grey is like captain Picard my favorite but I drink a lot of just plain black tea. My smoothies vary on what I have in the fridge, I try to vary it as much as possible, once a month I buy some strawberries or grapes, but typically they are a variation of apples, oranges, bananas or pears with apple juice or almond milk if I’m out of juice, I’ve also used water. This smoothie was one apple and one orange with about a half a cup of apple juice. My cereal I try to vary also this week I’m enjoying Island Vanilla whole wheat biscuits from Kashi, which are really good. If a person watches for sales Kashi is about the same price as any other name brand cereal, but I’ve been a little more happy with what I’ve gotten, the one with Currents are my favorite. Due to being a sudo vegetarian or a pescetarian I add the Flax seed to help boost my healthy fat intake, there really isn’t a taste associated with it, I’ve tried it in my smoothies many times, it changed the texture in a good way but it made doing the dishes a lot more difficult so I just leave it in my cereal. This is a wonderful breakfast that really gets me ready for a long day. Since adding the Flax seed I’ve found that I can now skip a meal every once in a while without problems however I try really hard not to do that. Because of the size and nutritional content my meals throughout the day do not have to be much more than a snack. Try it this is a great meal.